
Second best
Third place
A small unseen ribbon
Just a contestant
Carrying a chip on her shoulder
Tons of weight
Mediocre and average
Never enough
Depressed and lonely
Trying too hard
Desolate and desperate
In every decade
Feelings remain

Second best
Third place
A small unseen ribbon
Just a contestant
Carrying a chip on her shoulder
Tons of weight
Mediocre and average
Never enough
Depressed and lonely
Trying too hard
Desolate and desperate
In every decade
Feelings remain
Crinkled stars
Above all the broken hearts
Lost in direction
Hope is found
On the frozen ground
Losing its affection
The pieces are missing
Dandelions are kissing
My world is aching
I want what she has
I want it just as bad
I want something breathtaking
Could you play a melody
and add another verse
Could you play a guitar
to remove all the hurt

I snarled at the green stuff on my plate
I stared at something I refused to taste
She looked at me and said “Eat those Brussel Sprouts!”
“Mom this is something I could live without!”
She stood there sternly and put her hands on her hips
“I better see those Brussel Sprouts meet your lips!”
I glared at those green balls and closed my eyes
I opened up my mouth and told one Brussel Sprout goodbye
I couldn’t believe that it was yummy!
I couldn’t believe that it was happy in my tummy!

Low tolerance
for monumental errors
Imperative
to learn and evolve
Repetitive mistakes
cause blood to boil
and stirring silence
Humans are designed
to create blunders
If order and structure
are installed
Disarray
and inefficiencies
are minimal
Always striving
to improve
in all facades of life

I find that life is all about perception. I can see a glass half empty or half full. I find that I can worry about what I can control and not worry about what I can’t. I find the light within the dark. I find beauty within the scars. I find stages, scratches, and atmosphere that I can’t see. I find the exits of them when I look back. I find that I use more of my logic than emotion to see clarity. I find that I remove the complexity to unravel the simplicity. I find the passion within my words. I find I have to own up to my mistakes. I find that I have to continue learning. I find that I have to continue to evolve. I find the joy in what I have and don’t complain about what I don’t have. I find that I didn’t forget where I came from. I find that I know where I’m going. Why? I know where I was and where I am today in every aspect of my life. It all starts with perception.

Fluctuating economy
Stimulating Dow Jones
Buying and selling
In the eyes of the dollar sign
watching corporate America
Staring at bonds maturing
Building portfolios instead
of solid credibility
Complexity of convexity
Depreciating values
Staggering interest rates
Exploration of investments
Discussing volatile markets
Among a million decorated suits
Gripping risks and strapping
onto fixed incomes
Expecting returns on a rush
of thin adrenaline
Motivated by the number one root
of pure evil
I never saw
the heart strings you pulled
I never saw
the lies you borrowed
I never saw
the bedroom disguise
I never saw
the contamination
I never saw
your buried intentions
I never saw
the light on the center stage
I never saw
the script you wrote
I never saw
the truth revealed
I never saw
love drip from your lips
I never saw
this moment ever arriving
I never saw
you imagining you could walk away
I never saw
you so terrified and scared
I never saw
you using me

I close my
eyes and pull you close
to my chest
I opened my
eyes for the first time
to see a new purpose
I closed my
closets with
the hidden rain
I opened up
my crashing mind
to see my beloved soul
I closed the
stained glass window
to see the view
I opened up
the gates to feel
the flood from my eyes
I couldn’t stop
the driven rain

I feel worthless
No shine
Others are silver
I’m made up of copper
Very little value
Laying in cars
Sleeping on nightstands
A hundred of me
complete a dollar
Often hear “Keep it”
when change is created
I’m not wanted or valued
I feel worthless
One cent says it all
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Wretched old whore
Dirty rotten mouth
No filter spewing garbage
Based on wishful thinking
Lack of knowledge
Using terms without no foundation
Facts just mildew in her brain
Making assumptions
Connecting blurred dots
Due to her ill sicken mind
I could publish her life on line
But that’s right I have a conscious
To have friends you have to be human
To go to heaven you have to have a soul
Let God judge that not a troll

My written words
tell a story that
I refuse to unveil
You just don’t
notice it yet
You will understand
when I’m gone
You will be
on your own
with everything
that you wanted
all by yourself

You call
yourself a friend
But you are not
One by one
Evidence is clear
Meaningless word
Slowly my contacts
are erased from
my mind that use
that word
Don’t worry
My friends are the
words that are here
before my
awakened eyes
I know where I
get the attention
that I crave
It’s from people
who don’t even know me
that see me in
a different light
I “connect” with those
that write from the soul
and the heart.
I can accept the loneliness.

I altered my perception
and I got spit on
I appreciated someone’s art
and got tossed to the curb
I stand here misunderstood
and the sensitivity got ripped
I’m not surprised
Their perception never changed
Conclusions arrived
Mentally strange and delirious
Verdict is in
Deranged and unsound
Distinctly clear
Erratic and insane
Shining clarity
Unglued and unzipped
Opaque personality
Cockeyed and unbalanced
Dull as a pimple
You are my taint
An empty vase
Violent torn shell
Fanatical and laughable
Incompetent and childish
Demanding attention
Cruel and heartless
She’s the semen
Filling up the prophylactic

Psychobabble is drooling
Filth sliding off your tongue
To a world that doesn’t want you
Chaotic rambles spill
Flourishing idiotic sentences
To only a southern cult following
Despised and detested
The walking anti Christ
An asylum meant for your family
Raising children to scream
Not speaking with an ounce of intelligence
Your mother should have used a condom
So the world didn’t have to put up with
Your nonsense and illogical thoughts
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I am used
to color a fire truck
I am used
to color a stop sign
I am used
to color a red light
I am used
to color flames
I am used
to color Santa’s Claus’s outfit
I am used
to color a red ribbon
I am used
to color lipstick
I love the red crayon
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Strutting contradiction
spewing selfishness
Child like temper tantrums
dilute your balloon ego
Even the scarecrows
don’t want you
A strolling blood clot
aimless direction
A rambling anthrax
Mindless and foolish
Even the soulless
don’t want you
A marching eye sore
Belligerent and foul
A corrupted delinquent
Hop scotching bitch
Even the demons from hell
don’t want you
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