
I’m written on
Sometimes I’m wasted
I’m typed on
Sometimes I’m abused
I can be in different colors
Sometimes I’m crinkled
I’m different sizes
Sometimes I’m over used
I’m made into an airplane
Sometimes I wonder …
If I will ever disappear

I’m written on
Sometimes I’m wasted
I’m typed on
Sometimes I’m abused
I can be in different colors
Sometimes I’m crinkled
I’m different sizes
Sometimes I’m over used
I’m made into an airplane
Sometimes I wonder …
If I will ever disappear

Oh Poet the emperor
Shall I dive into your
18th century plagiarized manuscript?
It’s not as hidden as you
believe as educated as you are
I can read you like the pamphlet
Yes pamphlet – the size of
your sweet vocabulary
Diluted words of nothingness
Playing with Drama
Because you are the Queen
Not the King of Denmark
Despite the riddle you keep
reciting your manhood and strength
Keep taking a step further
with your playbook
I will rip apart and expose you
for who you really are
Lonely just the like rest
Minutiae among the minds

Spastic clutter
Opening up a can of debris
Mixed up predicaments
A compilation of distress
Walking into turmoil
Gazing at a eyesore
A mayhem of selfishness
Mishmash of ideals
Seeking light in the wreckage
Tripping on hindrances
Overlooking headaches
Disoriented from the gospel
Ignoring the theorems
Forever searching the self


Exasperated point of view
Tearing and ripping me in half
Accepting my tired faults
Ruining what was too good to be true
Reality digging in my insides
Watching my mind crash
into a broken down train station
As the clock barely moves
I stare into the wrecking machine
Seeing a glimpse of my skewed
perception shine bright
in my dumb blank eyes
Realizing my mind needs to be
examined and reprogrammed
Refusing to stay on this damn street
I’m a wounded prize,
Laced up in bitterness.
I’m a lethal injection,
Trapped in a empty bottle.
I’m a bullet from a war,
Only shot through my veins.
I’m a discarded black heart
Only seen in the shadows.
I’m the venom from the rattlesnake
Only to swallow with salt.
I’m a chill on my own spine
Only to stop from being numb.


Guzzling down courage
like a bottle of champagne
Staring at the sign
of gumption lane
Sucking on the icicles
of frozen truth
Ignoring the taste of
bitter rejection
Stuck in a vicious cycle
seeing the catatonic word
Toxicity lingers
on the door step of
Locust Manor
Hands in loose pockets
revealing the key
to enter a fifth dimension

Yellow submarine taxis growl
Chauffeurs flipping the bird
Traffic jams six miles long
under a melodramatic sky
Hearts flutter and change rattles
Scent of Pizza and hot dogs
fill up the obscure potent air
Surrounding big city talkfest
Delighted with lipstick flirts
Walking by high dollar men
Staring at petty indifferences
Nonchalantly cursing
Engrossed with constant image
Consumed with the red lights
Unable to cherish or embrace
seconds of life on Broadway
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Blaring hardcore
Metal music rumbling
Guzzling down a fifth
of Jim Beam at
the snakeskin wheel
with her licking her
saturated lips in the
passenger seat
Scorching engine
Curbside flames
Gateway to the
magnificent underworld
Drenched in the
madness and her
lustrous eyes
Salivating on the
speed lane to hell
as lightning crashes
Aching for the bombshell’s
fingers on my
trembling knee
to release the
infernos tension
She’s worth the
impact and ashes

I can’t sleep
without the scent of your pillow
Toss and turn
I can’t sleep
without you beside me
Toss and turn
I can’t sleep
without your warm embrace
Toss and turn
I can’t sleep
without a kiss good night
Toss and turn
I can’t sleep
without saying I love you
Toss and turn
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Choking on self served dirt
Prancing in your delicate castle
Bantering with the jester
High regards as a princess
Pointing at the fabric
stonewashed character
Keep sipping on your ideals
Seeking hidden agendas
Removing the plastic
Only glancing not seeing
Interpretations of nothing
Creating a plate of something
Keeping sipping the cup of dirt

Soaked in a frigid soliloquy
A bandage of icicles
around my fragment
and ruptured heart
Stuck in neutral in
Creeping Coldness Drive
like a drowning widow
Dangling a torch
above a mile away
from my frozen
barely pumping heart
Carrying winter chains
Gasping for air
Neon needles probing
to keep the remains alive
Please put the key
in the old ignition
and put it in drive

In this reflective light I couldn’t see your enigma
In this reflective light I couldn’t see your
dark wild
And the bricks stack up
In this reflective light I couldn’t see your
shades of gloom
In this reflective light I couldn’t see your
leaves twist in your tiring wind
And the bricks stack up higher
In this reflective light I couldn’t see your
blinding aggravation
In this reflective light I couldn’t see your
scorching tragedy
And the bricks surround me

He doesn’t know how great I am
He doesn’t know how special I am
He’s known me since the second grade
He doesn’t know I’m going to be famous
He doesn’t know that how much I love my Mom
He doesn’t know how I see the world
He doesn’t know my soft pain
He doesn’t know how I love
He doesn’t know I am gold yet
He doesn’t know I have the eyes of a photographer
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Between the dead air
and the white noise
Insomnia has filled the
room like a stench
Clinging to the anniversary
and illuminating memories
Refusing to let them
go from my palm and from
my pumping heart
that is secluded in
a storm above a small
wild island
Inside my daughters eyes
streams of sadness forever
stare into grey
Park Place is just a street
Home was always with him
Waking up alone
surviving each day
with a ray of hope
I’m beautiful
I have so much to offer
I know where my heart lives
I could feel you tiptoe around the bitter conversation.
I breathe in your narcissism.
I juggle your perfectionism and wind of chaos.
I could feel you dig your nails into my flesh.
I am starving for your disappearance.
I balance your chameleon charm and mirrors.
I could feel you drag your feet toward the open door.
I am constantly tasting your immaturity.
I adjust to your outbursts and drama.
I could feel you slipping through my fingertips.
I swallow the pill easily knowing you are no longer here.

I fell in love
with a broken soul
I fell in love
with her sunrise and sunset
I fell in love
with her wild animation
I fell in love
with her wick and poison
I fell in love
with her sharp blade
I fell in love
with her sensuous magic
I fell in love
with her burnt threshold
I fell in love
with her over the top style
I fell in love
with her distorted image
I fell in love
with her scrapes and bruises
I fell in love
with her brightness and mind
I fell in love
with her alluring voice
But her words destroyed me
and left me in emptiness
on Cabrillo Avenue
