As I grabbed the notebook I cried hard. Words poured out:
I am suppose to believe in you. You took my Dad and I’m very mad at you. I don’t understand and why won’t Nathan cry? What is wrong with him? How could you do this to my mother? Is it possible for you to provide me answers soon?
As I was writing this my mom yelled up.
“Allie is at the door.”
I threw down the pen and wiped my tears. I went downstairs to let Allie in. She said my mom called her mom to tell her the news. I could tell she didn’t know what to say.
“Are you going to school tomorrow?”
“No I’m not going but will go sometime this week. My mom said there was lots to do. I don’t know what she wants me to do.”
“Did she tell you next weekend you and Nathan are staying with us?”
“No she didn’t.”
“It will be fun.”
“Allie Do you believe in God?”
“Yeah I do.”
“Why would God take my Dad?”
Allie just stared at me for a moment.
“I don’t know. I can’t really answer that. Is your notebook full yet? You said you would write something every day.”
“It’s almost full. I wrote something today.”
“What did you write today?”
“Today I wrote a letter to God. I’m hoping he will get it soon and write back.”
“I don’t think that’s how that works.”
“What do you mean?”
“Well at church we are told to believe in him. I don’t think he gets mail in heaven. He doesn’t wait for mail. My mom always says things happen for a reason.”
“So are you saying God took my Dad for a reason?”
“I don’t think it’s that easy to explain Ben. He didn’t take him to cut grass in heaven.”
I didn’t understand what Allie was trying to say.